Burn down in flames

I run my fingers through your hair as you embrace me with the core of your physical fixation. The feeling is overwhelming, I feel like i'm being set on fire, ignited with an emotion that makes you feel full circle. Your head is spinning, whirling in monotone twirls where no words could fill the spaces. We lie awake stare into the darkness tossing verbal thoughts, dreams, as I lie on your chest listening to the live within you thumping rhythmically beneath the tip of my fingers. Your lids sealed shut from the hustle bustle of the world, you beathe in uncertain patterns, twitch at your dreams, I almost found joy spectating and studying your face as you sleep the night away. I loved the peace in saw in you.

Today morning, before I go to bed. I'm deserting the peace I once thought you ruled. I'm deserting the peace I once thought we ruled. I'm discarding my thoughts of you. I'm abandoning the person I am with you.
Why?

There was never peace.

"You know i'd do anything for you. I would go through all this pain, take a bullet straight through my brain, yes i would die for you baby, but you won't do the same."

So you see, that's the difference between you and I.
I'd never catch a grenade for you.